Hey there! Please come back tomorrow and join us for our Celebrate Your True Beauty link up! This is a challenge to all women to take a kind look at themselves and recognize what their true beauty is, OUTER beauty! Just list 3 things about your looks that you think is beautiful. Remember, this is TOMORROW! Here’s a link to the segment from The Today Show last week, it’s really eye opening.
I mentioned earlier that I was going to do a Prom link up, I am going to do that on Tuesday of next week – I hope you join in on the fun!
*I’m going to warn you, this is a downer of a post and if you don’t want to be brought down with me abort now. Abort! Abort!
Today is Wednesday, which means I should be recapping how I did with my scheduled workouts I listed last week. I did about 75% of what I said I’d do. I’m being vague about it because since Saturday I have been in the major dumps about my weight and lack of loss. I’m not even sure I have any NSV’s to fall back on, except maybe running 20 minutes straight this week. I am feeling defeated in the weight loss department and it has sent me into a downward spiral straight towards depression. I’m not mentioning this for sympathy, I am mentioning it so you understand why I am not being specific about my workout recap and to let you know I am not going to be posting about this stuff anymore….for awhile. I’m tired of feeling ugly, tired of feeling so rotten about myself. It gets worse with each passing day. I can’t understand why, if I’m putting the work and effort in, I am not getting any results. I’m angry. I am not giving up on trying, just giving up on thinking something is going to happen for the good in that area of my life. I’m done. Please, no hate mail, no ‘you can do this’ mail – I couldn’t bear it right now. I also can’t bear reading all of your blog posts about how you are all losing weight, all succeeding, all making it happen for you when I can’t. Just being honest. Call me a bitch if you will, stop reading if you want. I am so happy for all of you and so not happy for me. I just figure I should be honest with you. Is that mean? I don’t mean to be. As you can probably tell from reading this I am in a dark place right now. Debbie Downer, sorry not sorry. I hope to get out of this funk soon, because already I’ve been in it for too long and it’s affecting my house and my family.
I will see you back here tomorrow for the link up.