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I can’t believe I am saying this, but I have absolutely nothing to post about!  But I want to write a post just to stay in touch with everyone.  All I know right now is Baby Baby Baby.  And if that’s all I write about people are going to stop reading so I need to come up with something else to talk about, but what?  I guess I’ll just type whatever pops in my head and see where that takes me.

Aiden – he has a rash on his chin that is spreading.  At first I thought he was breaking out with acne but now that it’s spreading I’m not so sure.  I have made an appointment for him this afternoon but before I could call the school to let them know they called me and asked if I was aware of this rash on his face.  The secretary told me it looked like it was spreading and she wanted to know if I was okay with her putting on some Benadryl ointment.  How embarrassing for both Aiden and me.  For Aiden because people are noticing (it’s VERY noticeable, I hope his classmates aren’t teasing him), and for me because I look like a bad mom sending him to school like I hadn’t noticed it.  Now I’m worried that it’s something contagious and that poor Tate and Brennan will get it.  Andy’s taking Aiden to his appointment, anxious to hear what it is.

Brennan turns 5, that’s FIVE, this Thursday.  I just can’t believe that’s possible.  I hate and love seeing them get older.  Hate it because I hate change and have the “I don’t want to grow up” complex.  Love it because it’s so neat to see what little people they are becoming.  Warning: there WILL be tears on Thursday!  And probably a mushy post about my little pea pod buddy.  Sigh.

I went to my OB last Thursday to have my hoo-ha checked.  More specifically, to have my stitches checked from my episiotomy.  That’s beside the point. The point is, my weight.  I was down 6lbs less than my pre-pregnancy weight that day.  Funny thing is, my jeans aren’t super loose like I’d expect them to be, which means I haven’t really lost any fat, probably just water weight.  I’m afraid to hop on my scale here to see what that number says.  But at the time I was definitely doing a happy dance.  My jeans are super baggy in the butt and thighs, just not the waist.  It’s been 3 weeks since I had Tate, I should stop being so damn lazy and get my butt on the treadmill to start walking.  I know I’m not supposed to do any major exercising until the 6 week mark (and get the go ahead from my dr) but I can at least walk!  You’d think I’d be super motivated since my weight was down so much, kind of a ‘strike while the iron is hot’ thing.  But no, not me.  Duh.

I sit here with a 3 week old and think about how if I had a job that only allowed me a 6 week maternity leave I’d be halfway through it already.  How do you mom’s do that?  Physically my body is fine and would be ready to head back to work but mentally I would be a wreck thinking about leaving my baby in 3 short weeks.  I was lucky enough with the older boys to be home 13 and 12 weeks so I never had to leave a 6 week old.  I think we should adopt Canada’s policy and be able to take a full year of maternity leave.  No, it’s not for everyone, and I don’t fault those it’s not for at all because boy do I know how hard staying home can be, but it’d be awesome for those that do want to stay home to have that option!

I’ve started cooking again.  I didn’t realize just how lazy I had become while being pregnant until I started actually cooking real meals again the week we came home with Tate.  I apologized to Andy because I had just been slapping together crap.  So tonight we’re having meatballs, cheesy hash browns, corn and a lettuce salad.  I need to start really focusing on making healthy, low fat meals so I don’t gain back the weight I’ve already lost.  Who can steer me in the right direction?

I have to admit, I’ve been feeling overwhelmed the last few days.  We have some important stuff going on this week – Brennan’s birthday is Thursday, Saturday morning Tate gets baptized, then lunch here after then Brennan’s birthday party after that.  So I have a ton of cleaning and prep to get done and I just feel like I’m treading water and not getting anywhere.  Add on top of that caring for a newborn, trying to pay enough attention to the boys so they don’t feel neglected, trying to pay enough attention to my husband so our marriage doesn’t suffer, trying to keep this house picked up, making meals, getting myself a shower if nothing else… I have a list a mile long and so I feel overwhelmed.  I’ll be fine, none of it’s that hard to manage its just a lot at once.  Not getting a full night’s sleep plays into the overwhelmed feelings.  Andy offered to take a night and give Tate formula so I could just sleep but I can’t let him do that, he works and needs his sleep more than I do.  Plus my boobs would be near bursting in the morning if I didn’t nurse Tate during the night and I wouldn’t be able to sleep knowing Andy was up with him and I wasn’t.  Really, I am fine and will muddle through and come out the other side just fine, promise!

Well, looks like I was able to come up with something to write about! Ha! Sorry if you stuck through the whole thing! Time to get some lunch for Brennie and me. 

Have a great afternoon!

Erin

10 comments:

  1. First - your rambles are one of the reasons I love you!! And I totally stuck through it all and even teared up - DAMN YOU! Leaving Mav was the hardest thing I do on a daily basis. I cry about every other day - not full on bawling but tears none the less. I hate that I have to work but if I don't want to live in a cardboard box I must go to work!! I just feel like I have no time with him during the week and it sucks. I know I don't pay enough attention to Travis b/c I want all my energy focused on my little man! Gah - being a rockstar Mommy and Wife is hard work yo!!

    Yay - I am soo glad that B will have his little gift in time for his bday!!!

    Baptism - I really need to work on this for Mav!

    You are not a bad mom for sending Aiden!! You should have said - Yes I noticed it, he has an appointment today thank you! LOL Hopefully kids aren't being mean to A man!

    What time is dinner? I am coming over!!

    XoXo

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  2. If you don't have anything to write about, just post pictures of those sweet boys! Can you believe Brennan is going to be five? Is he all signed up for KG? Brady turns four in April, and I feel like I am in denial. I don't want my baby to grow up!

    Awesome job on the weight loss!! What's your secret?? Being an awesome mom to three boys? Yep, that's probably it!

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  3. Your post is wearing this 37 week pregnant woman out! You are a super mom handling all this stuff after just having a baby!!!

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  4. Working at the preschool, I've seen all kinds of red faces lately. Chapped lip, eczema, dry skin. This weather is tough on the littles!

    Some times we feel like we don't have anything to say but we need to make sure we document. I use my blog as a memory book. I love to look back at old posts. Some times we caught up in the busy days of being a mom, every day seems the same but looking back even over a short time things are different. There's a quote on Pinterest that says it perfect, I'll try to find it :)

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  5. You have got to give yourself a break!!! You just had a baby 3 weeks ago and taking care of a newborn is no joke. I had no idea you worked when your oldest boys were little. What did you do before being a SAHM? How cool that you are able to be at home with Tate and not have to worry about tick-tock of maternity leave.

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  6. Goodness, you certainly have a lot going on! To to cut yourself a little slack. And, I bet those two sweet little boys of yours would be happy to help tidy up your house.
    A favorite go-to meal that we like, and stays within the "health conscious" category:
    Crock pot chicken tacos (4 chicken breast, packet of taco seasoning, 8-10 oz salsa, set on low for 4-5 hours or high for 2-3 hours, shred, add to tortillas, top with your favorite goodies)!
    Hang in there, you're an awesome mommy doing and AWESOME job.

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  7. Oh Erin, you have a ton going on! Maybe a bit too much for one weekend. I hope it all goes well, and once the lunch and Brennies party is over, you need to relax!! Taking care of a newborn is a lot of work in itself, add baptism, birthdays, lunches, and regular daily house things, plus no sleep!! You do need to relax too. And take some time, even a few minutes for yourself. And, cut yourself some slack! You can't do it all! And no one expects you to!! Good luck though, and next week I better read a post about you relaxing!! Lol!

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  8. Did you get anywhere with the rash? Hopefully that gets cleared up quickly... I know that's no fun for you or him!

    I read something the other day and you made me think of it when you said you can't let A get up in the night because he works so he needs his sleep... honey, YOU work too... you are a full-time mom all day long. That is your job. Your job isn't to clean or cook or run the household... your job is to be a mom and take care of those kids. And you do it and do it amazingly... all the other stuff is extra that SAHM's (and all moms, really) add to their workload because they feel like they should... but it's not part of your job. Does that make sense? Anyways, you're doing a great job juggling it all and I'm sure this weekend will turn out great... and when people offer to help, LET THEM!!

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  9. Phew! You're making me tired just reading all you've been up to! DOn't forget to give yourself a break and take it easy too!!

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  10. So what did you find out about the rash? 6 pounds under pre pregnancy weight? You are killing it. You have a lot going on. Remember to get that rest when you can!!! Those 3 boys will keep you busy.

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